I know, I know. I committed the sin of all blog sins: not blogging for a month! (I know the 5 readers in my family will be heartened by my comeback.) Frankly, it’s been a month of reassessment. The good news is that I went to the gym a couple of days ago and plan to go again today. I walked exactly one mile, it took 20 minutes, and sad as that is compared to how fast I was moving 6 months ago…. well, I’m over 6 months pregnant and hitting that home stretch where you might as well be exercising with a pile of library books in your arms or a few bags of flour strapped to your belly. I did lift some weights and did some big muscle groups (shoulder press, leg press, etc) and now I look like this woman. Kidding…
I’ve been meaning to blog, but the last few weeks have encompassed the following: a family trip to San Diego, including a 5-hour flight with a 3 year old and 15-month-0ld. My husband’s major knee surgery the morning after our return (we’d been waiting 9 months for a go-ahead and the doc called us on our first day of vacation). A visit from my SIL who’s been stationed in Iraq for a year. Massive teething on Toot’s part that motrin didn’t seem to take care of. And I came back from San Diego with a weird virus that attacked my muscles — every rib muscle, every finger muscle, and of course all the bigger ones for good measure — and meant that I could barely lift an empty plate or mug. I’m better now, but for a week things were pretty hairy.
So I’m here, slowly getting back to the gym. About to brave swimsuit season at our neighborhood pool — which for the most part is occupied by moms in various states of pregnancy or postpartum, so it’s not that intimidating, really. And I’ve taken time to reassess what this blog was, is, and will be. It feels as if the last several months have been more about beating myself up for not exercising or struggling through my prepartum depression (which is much better now). I do want to push on through, but how inspiring can a blog be when it’s mostly about coping with difficult issues? I need to think through this to figure out just how I want this blog to be, for myself and for anyone who’s reading.